Toddlerhood has been rough these past few days. Maybe it’s a growth spurt. Maybe it’s that last molar coming through the gum. I’m not certain of anything at all and it’s a little overwhelming sometimes. He’s nursing more and it’s exhausting, especially when I have plans to work. I’ve got loads of projects to do over the next few weeks and it always seems that when that happens, is when Odin needs me most. I’m normally very proud of my level patience, but there are days where it isn’t in me. I’ve stayed up too late the night before and am just too tired to fill my voice with sounds of joy to get us through these rough patches. Parenting is rough stuff, but I need to remind myself that toddlerhood must be even more difficult. Quotes from articles on gentle parenting fill my head and I become disappointed in myself that I’m not able to give it my all 24-7. I yelled yesterday and it made me terribly sad, I never yell. He didn’t nap until dinner time and that’s never happened before.
I woke up this morning and decided today would be different. I slept some last night and feel a little more rested today. We had breakfast and while cleaning and now writing a post, Odin has been within two feet of me, quietly reading his books. I hopped onto Google and realized that it’s the first day of Spring. Today is also the International Day of Happiness, which seems so fitting. Spring is a time of rebirth and after the longest winter months I’ve ever experienced, there are little shoots of green appearing everywhere. The weather is growing warmer (then colder, then warmer, then colder.. I don’t remember Spring being such a tease!), and we’ve been playing outside every day this week. Odin is repeating everything we say and constantly asking us to tell him new words. It’s amazing how quickly they learn at this age.
We’ve been listening to loads of new music and dancing on our good days. I’ve been extra productive and trying very hard to give everything my all, but it can be exhausting. This summer, Zak’s sister will be helping with Odin so that I can commit a decent amount of time to art. I can’t wait for that time to do things for me and I know Odin will enjoy the time with his “Mare-mare” too.
I’m working alongside another small business on island and we will be hosting a “Little Farmer Market” this summer. A farmers market geared towards the littles, with lots of baby and child products. I’m hoping to have lots of toys for it!
So because today is what it is, I will change my mindset. There are beautiful things in the works and so much to look forward to this year. Odin and I will welcome the warmth and outside time with open arms, and I am looking forward to days on the beach making art, playing ukulele, and swimming with my little man. We will visit the beach every day and go out to breakfast on Sundays. Things will me memorable and I want to start making those memories today.
Happy Spring and Happy International Day of Happiness, friends.
Remember, in the words of Kid President, “You are made from love, to be loved, to spread love.” So spread a little love today.